Wow am I learning to be grateful for contrast and how lucky I am to have 3 children to help me with this everyday!! My daughter had a complete meltdown this morning, over several things, and I was able to love her unconditionally. It was AMAZING, I really was able to see her the way source sees her, as a perfect being exactly when she should be at that very moment. For the first time, I did not ask her to stop her behavior, so I could feel better. I allowed myself to feel good in the moment despite the conditions I was facing. It felt very new and like home at the same time. Like I was finally seeing her the way my inner being sees her, as my beautiful, capable, wonderful child. I decided to move downstream and go with the flow, finding the positive in the moment and focusing on that! In order to explain how I got here, I need to talk a bit out my experience over the weekend.
On Friday night I let each of my kids have a friend over for a sleepover. One of the moms offered to bring doughnuts for the kids in the morning. She arrived with a dozen assorted doughnuts. How would doughnuts bring contrast you ask? Well, the contrast came from my vibration surrounding choice and fairness and my trying to control the children's emotions. I do not like when someone is upset because it has made me upset as well in the past. I used to blame others for their emotions, because darn it they made me uncomfortable. So here we are, 12 different doughnuts, 8 different children and my focus on trying to make them all happy, because what if someone doesn't get the kind they want. My solution, lets cut each doughnut into 4 pieces that way everyone can have some of what they want for sure (I felt so brilliant, no one will be upset) WRONG!!!! To the rescue comes my children, wailing that they want a whole doughnut, they always have to share. In that moment I decided to do as Abraham says and just GO WITH THE FLOW and move downstream! Trying to control them was NOT FEELING GOOD AT ALL. They were telling me what they wanted, so instead of doing what I thought was best, I took the path of least resistance and trusted they would all work it out. It felt very strange, almost taboo, but holy cow it worked. They all were happy and I didn't have to battle. Whoever said "if it isn't a challenge, it isn't worth doing," never felt the relief of going down stream.
I was so excited about how this worked, it became my focus for the weekend. Of course I was calling more opportunities to practice this and again, my children (and kittens) came to the rescue. The key to taking the path of least resistance, is excepting the situation and being happy unconditionally. It really helps if you are taking time when you are in the vortex, to see the situation as positive. Thanks to my kittens and their natural form of play fighting, I was able to change the way I view my kids and their bickering. Kittens are a lot like kids, they are doing whatever their instinct tells them to do, which includes trying to kill each other as practice for hunting. Well I want my kids to following their instincts and be strong creators of their reality. I want them to learn to trust their inner guidance and do what feels good. In order to do that, they need to launch rockets of desire which means they NEED CONTRAST! Who better than to practice that with that their siblings. And can you imagine how they will feel when they understand that I can support them through that and that I can do it from a place of love. Well, at some point they will get that. For now they are just confused at why I am no longer taking sides and no longer getting upset for their bickering. They will settle in to the new way I respond and it will be beautiful.
The Reiki Precept "Do not be worried" really came into play this weekend. I used to be far too worried about what everyone else was feeling, now I trust that they are in the perfect place at all times, it is not my job to worry about them or fix them. We all have exactly what we need inside of us, if we just look.
My doTerra oils Forgive and Peace blends continue to support me through the wobbly times. I put these tools into my reality for a reason, they help!!!
About this blog
After almost 2 years of deep depression and grief I am on the road to Wellness. This is a journey that has no end, yet I reach my goal of wellness everyday. Feeling joy and happiness no matter what the circumstance or situation I am in, is my goal! In this blog I share my struggles, experiences and solutions as I make this choice to live well!