I don't really know where to start which is why it has taken until now to begin this journey. Just over 5 years ago I was a mess, living in constant pain, abusive to my family and utterly miserable. An angel left a note on my windshield, which highlighted everything I was ashamed about and hated about myself. It showed me that I had become exactly what I was trying so hard to avoid being. Turns out it was the focusing on what I didn't want that got me there in the first place. At the time this lead me to focus on NOT being miserable even more, I did not know anything else. Again, The Universal Law Attraction lead me too the only thing it could, more misery!! Now I realize that all that focusing is what really lead me there so I ave stopped focusing on what I don't want. In August of 2015, I found Reiki. Through Reiki teachings and daily reiki meditation practices, I was able to experience the Vortex adn release all resistance. During Reiki Meditations your only job is to do nothing and think nothing. It was in this nothingness that the resistance began to release. I began to allow stillness to take place, which meant I was not thinking all those negative thoughts. In that stillness and in my quiet mind, peace and joy snuck in. It was that hint of release and freedom to feel good that helped me believe recovery from depression was possible. Here I am just 6 months later, do my best everyday to stay In the Vortex! You can read my About Keslie Page to learn more about my journey and how I got here!
About 6 weeks ago I rediscovered the Law of Attraction and Abraham (Esther) Hicks. I say rediscovery because I was introduced to Abraham Hicks by a very dear friend several years ago but was unable to fully accept the teachings. My life is no longer a scary set events that are just happening to me and that out of my hands. My life and how I feel in any given moment is mine to decide. Abraham has taught me the single most important concept ever, I am the ONLY person responsible for how I feel. Period. I have the power to be fully in control of how I feel AT ALL TIMES! I can no longer blame any emotion on ANY EXTERNAL SOURCE. What does this mean? It means that I can always choose to feel better than I do, no matter what is happening around me. Even if someone is screaming in my face, I can choose how it effects me. In fact that is all I can control, is HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT!! It does not mean that I would stand there and take it, nor does it mean that I would choose to be around to that person again. All it means is I can choose Love and Peace within myself at any given moment. There is no person, place, thing or event that can control how I am feeling, nor can I control this for anyone else. I create my reality and I choose happiness, love and joy! There are hundreds if not thousands of free videos/audios on youtube, from Abraham (Esther) Hicks, I highly suggest them to everyone. You can search for general things like Abraham Hicks Vortex or Esther Hicks Vortex or either specific things like Abraham Hicks Headaches or Esther Hicks Parenting (lots of parenting videos, my personal fav).
Ok, so for now, and forever more on this blog, I will be sharing with you how I am staying IN THE VORTEX!! Living this way was very foreign to me, like using a muscle that has never been used. It has taken time and many baby steps to get to the place where I could even accept these teachings. Each day is a fine tuning of this muscle. I will share events and experiences that lead to feelings in me that I want to avoid and I will share with you how I change them into feeling that feel better. I will talk about how I change my focus and therefore my experience in life! Stay tuned...
About this blog
After almost 2 years of deep depression and grief I am on the road to Wellness. This is a journey that has no end, yet I reach my goal of wellness everyday. Feeling joy and happiness no matter what the circumstance or situation I am in, is my goal! In this blog I share my struggles, experiences and solutions as I make this choice to live well!